Going back to work would mean that I would be running around all over again. Dropping kids, working, picking kids, cooking dinner, baths, and sleep time. This routine will probably get old really fast. I just don't know why I am still entertaining the thought. I guess I just miss my financial independence.
I am going to sleep on this new thought and take it easy for a while. I still have 6-9 months to truly make up my mind. This is so hard!!!!! A part of me want to continue what I am doing..be home all day with my babies and cherish every moment with them. A part of me misses my co workers, my paycheck, my time. Just realized that the things I miss are all about "me". Maybe I am just going through a selfish spell...God Help Me!
There really is no perfect answer. As a working mom, I can tell you that there are days like you described, but things are a bit easier now that both my kids are in school. (Don't think your life as a taxi driver will lesson-your older kids will get involved in new activities you will be driving my friend.)
ReplyDeleteIf you are toying with the idea but are worried about the cost, maybe you should wait. If the preschool and daycare would take a bite out of your pay but it would still help you emotionally and economically, then go for it. See, the decision is not easy, and only you know what you need and can handle. Don't worry about anyone else-it is not selfish to have wants too... Good luck!
Thanks for your input Susan. You are right. Only I know whats right and what I can handle. My husband who is a financial advisor talks to me about numbers. What I should make myself understand is that sometimes its not about numbers, its about doing what makes you a happier person. Thanks again Susan, you always come through!
ReplyDeleteI struggled with this for a long time before going back to work. Sometimes I love being a working mom and knowing that I am doing it all even though it is hard. Sometimes though I wish I was still home all the time. Knowing that it is helping my family and I more then just financially , but emotionally it gets me through. Whatever answer comes along it will be right because you made it.
ReplyDeleteGood luck on your decision. It is a tough one. I have been there. It always seems greener on the other side.
ReplyDeleteThanks Connie and Dalia! I still have some time to truly make up my mind. For now I am focusing on cherishing all these memories with my girls. But you guys are right..its a struggle and grass does seem to be greener on the other side.
ReplyDeleteAreeba, well it is very simple decision - if you think 3 kids in the house will be better off with your care and nurturing - then stay home, otherwise go back to corp grind, where you will have to take care of both worlds, at home with more help from your husband. As far as Paycheck and Financial independence is concerned, you know there are various ways you can do that. If you like ideas, let me know. I have a lot of work from home ideas....
ReplyDeleteTake care