No One Said Marriages Were Easy....

I have been married for almost 7 years and I truly believe that marriages are a constant work in progress. Lately with some family stress, I feel like I am getting myself in and out of the bubble. At times lack of support and insensitivity drives me insane and I find myself isolating myself from the world. I would love to blame my pregnancy hormones, but I do know that you can only be irrational and crazy in the head but so many times.

I am trying to come up with a strategic plan where I ensure myself of a smile at all times. Things that bother me:

- Criticism, especially when it involves the kids

- "I am trying to make a living comment" which tears a hole in my heart. To which I respond that I am just home eating bon bons.

- Unsolicited advise - Sometimes I just want to be heard and don't want a solution. Especially when the solution does not sound like anything "I" would do.

So how do I ensure a smile. Well I could always just tell myself that I am made of teflon and criticism is just going to get a big laugh out of me. Making a living comment will be responded with, well how about you stay home and I go to work. I can take some pressure off you!. And the unsolicited advise..well that's a tricky one! Either I act like I am deaf and just shake my head or I chose other people to hear me!

I really need to find a hobby, perhaps go back to studying for my license so that I can be of some worth. Lately its been hard on me. The need to get some time for myself has been impossible and everything around me seems to be unapproachable.

God help me!